Deafening Silence

"It's 4am, and I just saw something after which I can never be the same."

I haven’t eaten in 2 days, I haven’t heard a human word in 3. If I found a cigarette, I’d smoke it.

The weight of this particular life decision is now apparent; the weight of all of my decisions is now something I feel. That feeling is liberating; remaining numb is not. Satisfying one desire after another is not satisfying; rushing from one thing to the…